Wednesday 27 May 2009

Rant!

Am I in Mean Girls or something?

Firstly, Becca, after ignoring me for weeks and missing my birthday decides to become best friends when she realises I'm arranging a night out clubbing. All of a sudden she's in touch again, and today she even sends me a message asking if I want to go on holiday?! Erm no, because you will probably drown me in the pool.

Now Ashley who was flirting with one of Stevens' (my boyfriend) friends, Sean, is having a go. I was searching online for some cats as I want to buy one soon from the Kennels so I was just concentrating on that and not Facebook. Ten minutes later I get this text ranting at me saying I must be ignoring Ashley as I'm secretly in a radge she told Sean she liked him. Well, I could actually be busy!

Ahhh the joys of a blog. You can get out all your anger without ever having to say it out loud and create waves.

Sunday 17 May 2009

The end of an era x

Hello everybody :)

It was my last day at work yesterday as the seasons over now. I always feel bad knowing that I won't see people I've grown to like ever again. I got moved to a different Kiosk as well, so I didn't even get to say buy properly either. Maybe I'm reading too much into his bad mood because really nobody wants an unrequited fancy do they?

The last thing he said to me was "Oh Emma wait a minute....Where did you put that cup?" Like not even bye or anything. Everyone else said bye to me, even people I don't talk to as much, so I don't know what horror I committed for such a placid last encounter. I guess that's a chapter that's closed now though. If he seriously wanted to get in touch with me, he knows I have a facebook but I doubt he would (becuase lets face it, nothing looked good about what I just wrote). I feel a bit bad about it really but I'm sure it'll pass in a few days.



Moving on to a bit of girlfriend trouble, I haven't talked to Becca in ages now as she's still not made any contact with me since I said messaged her. I invited her to my birthday and she said 'Are we cool now?', so I said;

"Well, I think you were a bit harsh as I wasn't even avoiding you and you've been talking to me quite nastily, but I still want you to come to my bday because it's not worth fighting over"...

She hasn't talked to me since, even though I know she's been online, and she hasn't bothered to message me back. It's like two days away from my official birthday, and five from my party, so if she decides to message back and come I can imagine it might be a little awkward. I do miss her alot even though she's been quite horrible. She told Jonny (her boyfriend) that I had apparently been ignoring her because I'd accused her of standing me up?! It was totally the other way round but I have a feeling that she thinks it's all my fault full stop.



;') I fell over my excersise bike and twisted my ankle so I hope I can wear heels by Friday. My ankle was killing so much I never even felt the cuts and bruises all down my other leg. I've been limping everywhere which is never a good look, but it hasn't put me off spending the night trying on different dresses with heels. I can't decide between a short flirty dress with a little flowered pattern, a sexy above the knee but skin tight dress from River Island with the lushest embellishement ever, or my LBD with all the back cut out. Decisions, decisions! I'll post pics of them all tomorrow, although the LBD looks crap unless it's on, but I really want your opinions :) x x x

Wednesday 13 May 2009

Exams are taking over my life!!!!

I promise to update soon :)
x x x

Thursday 7 May 2009

Birthday

Ahhh birthdays are so stressful to arrange. There's always that lingering thought 'what happens if noone turns up?'...Or is that just me?...

I noticed when writing messages to people that Gossip Girl has ruined my allowance to end with 'XOXO'.
Bitch.

On a more serious note, Becca had a complete freak-out on me on facebook saying that I had been ignoring her. She went so over the top, patronising me and being completely horrible and then just signed out. She hasn't contacted me since, so I don't know whether to invite her to my birthday. I'm really annoyed but at the same time I don't want to be petty. Any ideas?
x x x

Saturday 2 May 2009

The Credit Crunch

I've been with my boyfriend for three years, and each year present buying has got a little more ridiculous. Last year, he took me to York for a weekend and clubbing, and I took him to V festival which each cost over £300. Even though this is ridiculous considering that I was a student getting £30 a week and he was completing an apprentice so he was earning £150, I used to just save for months on end to get him the same value present.

Now that he's became redundant though and he gets £40 a week, and I now get £20, he has completely changed his tune. I don't even mind spending less because it took me about 10 weeks to save up for the same present he could get me in 1 week (after I paid for my bus fair to school and never bought anything at all), but I'm more annoyed that I used to beg him to spend a more reasonable amount because of my own financial problems and he never would. I'd feel totally inclined to spend the same and always would, but now he's in a similar financial situation to me he's suddenly wanting to only spend £10 begrudingly. I feel like he should appreciate how much it actually cost for me to save up but he's more concerned about what a waste of money my birthday is now. I know I sound totally unreasonable but it just annoys me how eveything always changes when he wants it to, and I just have to go along with it. I didn't make a massive deal out of the excessive spending because I didn't want him to be disappointed and I wanted it to be fair. It's like he's only concerned for his own finance, I bet if he got a job the spending price would go up again even if I was completely in the same boat.

I know I'm being unreasonable, but I still think it's unfair.